Friday, September 18, 2015

An Anchor For My Feelings



Is it possible to find the positive in everything? Is everyone of us a mixed bag of positives and negatives? If it is your constant attempt to reduce the negatives  with a lot of introspection, self censoring, are you still being yourself? If I am myself, would I like myself? It has been my attempt to mold myself into a being that I can like and live with. I have been quite successful so far, apart from some naive mistakes of my childhood and youth, I have been good. I am honest. I try to refrain from speaking or doing anything that hurts anyone, even if it is the truth that I have. There are times that I have thought that the entire human race is a dishonest, selfish bunch and  every time I think that way I slip into a very dark place. It takes a lot of hard work to pull myself out of there by trying to see the positive. Then I wonder, is there a positive? Would the world be better of, if there were no humans? We manipulate everything around us to suit ourselves. Everyone thinks they are special, one of a kind, when there are more than a billion of us in this world! Why do people like to think  they are unique, then again, why do I think at all?

I do not like being treated as a woman more than being a woman. Although, I hate the word tomboyish,  that is what everyone called me while growing up. Although, when I think back, I see myself being a free spirit, a wild child. One not conforming to the rules set by the society. I still have a bit of that lingering identity crisis and rebellion left in me. As I grew older and go through the fertile period of my life, the feminine aspects of the body that I am born into take control. I learn to behave as a girl that the society prescribes. The more I try to comply by the societies view of a good woman, the clearer it is to me that my society sees a good woman as being subservient, and docile. That makes me hate being a woman. I have serious issues with gender roles and I can do nothing about it. For doing anything against it would hamper my quest for being good. I surely don't believe that Men and Woman are equal. We are different and have our strengths in different areas. Neither of the two sexes are superior. Women have the added burden or probably a blessing, depending on your perspective, of carrying forward human race. I do agree that it is good that there are these differences, it makes life more interesting and fun. Would it not be better if we could just have mutual respect between the sexes, acknowledging the fact that we are all in it together? Respect and appreciate the differences. Compliment each other than compete. 

Why is it that Men (the men I know) can afford to be lazy at home and not the woman. In the stone ages, men surely had the harder job of hunting in wild and bringing home the meal and women had to stay home and raise children and care for the men when they were back after their tiring work/ day.Why do the men (the men I know), think that they can expect to laze around and relax when work (putting the bread on the table) has become a combined responsibility? Should the responsibility of child rearing and other household chores become a combined responsibility as well?

 Trying to stay positive :) :
http://www.positivityblog.com/index.php/2006/10/11/10-ways-to-change-how-you-feel/

Monday, June 29, 2015

STRAWBERRY-BANANA SOUFFLE PANCAKE RECIPE

3 eggs separated
1/2 cup half and half
1/4 cup flour
1 pinch salt
1 1/2 tablespoons butter, melted
1 tablespoon grand mariner 
1/2 cup strawberries and Banana + 1 tbl. sugar 
Preheat broiler. 
Beat two of the egg yolks with the half-and-half (reserve the third yolk for another purpose). Add the flour slowly, stirring just enough to combine. Stir in the sugar, salt, melted butter and Grand Mariner.
Beat the separated egg whites until they form soft peaks. Fold them into the batter.
Heat a lightly greased 8-inch nonstick ovenproof skillet, or a heavy cast-iron skillet, over moderately high heat or until oil bubbles.
Pour the batter into the pan. Reduce the heat to medium and cook until bottom of the pancake is browned and bubbles appear around the edges, for 5 to 8 minutes. Arrange the  fruits gently on top of the batter. 
Place the pan 4 to 5 inches below the broiler and cook until the top of the pancake is brown and the center is just set but still soft. 
Gently slide the pancake onto a warmed serving plate, dust with powdered sugar . Serve with more sliced strawberries and raspberries.